-A memory of his childhood.

-I was 8 or 10 years old and, when I was alone, I painted myself with my mother's paints. But she did it secretly, as if she were crazy.

-How did you manage at school, with your classmates?

-They were different times. Boys who had a feminine air were marginalized, they were laughed at, and I tried to hide it.

-And at the institute?

-I continued playing a role that was not mine, playing the man. I even got married, at 24 years old. The suffering was accumulating, until there comes a moment when you say: "Either I live as what I am or I don't live anymore."

-And he decided to change his body.

-I am 45 years old and I officially started the change 6 years ago. On a physical level it is gradual: every day you look in the mirror to see if you have more chest. On a mental level you become more sensitive, emotions overwhelm you. You take female hormones all your life and also male anti-hormones, anti-androgens, until you have surgery.

-You already had the day for the sex change operation.

-It was scheduled for 2012, but with the cuts it has been postponed.

-And what are you going to do?

-Continue going out every day and enjoying my femininity, of being a woman. Internally, externally and legally I am a woman.

-How many years has it taken you to speak with this conviction?

-Until I was 35, when I was referred to the Clínic's gender identity unit, I was very confused. I felt like a woman and at the same time I was attracted to women. I didn't understand anything, I didn't understand the difference between sexual identity and sexual orientation.

-Could you explain it?

-Many people believe that transsexuality is like homosexuality and has nothing to do with it, gender identity is one thing and sexual orientation is another. You are not a woman because you like men, first you feel like a woman and then you can like whatever you want.

-Why are we women?

-Because we feel like women. Since I was little I already felt identified with girls.

-But does the essence of the feminine exist? And where is? In the vagina? In the brain? In the look?

-The feminine essence is felt deeply, but it is also in the body. Maybe not for you, but I am trapped in a male body and, when I look in the mirror, I don't recognize myself. There are many types of transsexual women, but unfortunately you only see the one that appears on TV, the extravagant one, the Poison. Society has led these people to be like this, but transsexuality is an engineer, journalist, shop assistant...

-At one point in the play he stands up and, pointing to the audience, accuses: "It's your fault."

-People ask: "And you, why are you like this?" I found the answer in a documentary about Guernica. When the Nazis occupied France Picasso was living in Paris and the Gestapo entered his house and showed him a photo of Guernica: "Have you done it?" they asked him. He looked at the photo and said: "No, you did this." But I admit that part of the blame is mine.

-Because?

-After many years of therapy and thanks to this play I have reached conclusions of which I was previously incapable. For example, that your self-esteem cannot depend on the recognition of others; If to love yourself you have to depend on what they think of you, you're sold. I have a hard time because I still seek recognition from my family, but I cannot always depend on their recognition to be well.

-Do you feel singled out?

-Pointed, look. Less and less, but once a week I have to hear: "He's a guy!" I wish I could become invisible one day.

-What would you like to find in the eyes of others?

-Honey, sincerity.

-And what do you find the most?

-Fear, resentment and, above all, loneliness, but I don't know if it is a reflection of my own fear, my resentment and my loneliness.